God I can't believe how in love I am with these 2, and can't believe I could fall even in more love with someone. I'm so thankful for these 2, I don't know what I'd do without them. They've helped me so much, and now that our son is finally here I feel like maybe I can start to heal. I got the biggest surprise of my life when I first set my eyes on him, he has the same exact birthmark on his right eye as his big sister had and he acts like she did as a baby a bit too. I know his sister is watching over us, and when I first saw that birthmark I knew that she had given a piece of herself to him as well. I miss her so much, and now more than I ever I feel like she hand picked her little brother for us. I'm so thankful for my kids and my boyfriend, without them I'd be completely lost.