Not sure where this goes

Elizabeth
Um so i have.. health issues that are causing me to take alot of pills that I think are making my mood swings bad. I found out it might be impossible for me to have kids. Im not usually a big baby person but due to me not having my period for 60 days ive taken 4 birth control test all negative and today hit me hard i broke down crying. My boyfriend doesnt seem intrested in kids not sure if what im feeling is me or just hormones im 26. And idk feel like im more ranting then anything im sorry. No idea what to feel i guess.