I'm not gonna lie

I'm feeling pretty upset right now. I just found out I'm having our 4th boy. I love my baby no matter what. It's not that he's a boy it's that I have to let go of my desire to have a baby girl. It's a lose in a way. My whole family is just going to give me the look of disappointment and sadness when I share the news. I don't even feel like telling anyone. Everyone has been saying how much they hope it's a girl and they all kept saying "it's a girl this time." I know they won't be excited and it kind of hurts