hoooooly shitz!

Man I've been having contractions all day, hospital sent me home around 9pm because my cervix isn't in position and the nurse had to stick her whole freaking arm inside of me (that's just what it felt like idk) just to find out I'm 80% effaced but now it's 3 am and I'm having irregular contractions (from 6 minutes to 12) but they keep getting stronger. I can't even lay down so I'm sitting on this ball with my face in the bed. They told me not to go back to the hospital until my water breaks 😩😩