Planning both my sister in law and my best friends showers for June and July. Here I am trying to get pregnant myself. Sometimes it hurts and I can't talk to anyone about it. I don't want them to know I'm jealous, I don't want them to know I envy them, I don't want them to know how much it hurts me that it's easy for them. I am so happy for them both, but I don't want them to see my pain. Putting on a smile and planning the best two baby showers this year. Maybe mine will be next. 😔