So over this 😞

Friday my friend/co worker announced she is pregnant...don't get me wrong I am truly happy for her because I know the struggles she went thru to get pregnant, she had to have IFV done due to her having PCOS. I know she is excited for her new journey but since she knows my struggles with trying to get pregnant I think the things she says or does, she says them to kind of hurt me, just yesterday she said to my other friend "Hey, I'm going to the bathroom, you know like I don't visit that person enough" I just feel like she meant to say it in front of me. Maybe he intentions aren't to hurt me but I have been really depressed lately and maybe that is why I took it so personally. Today I had a break down I couldn't hold in my feelings anymore. I broke down and cried to one of my good friends. I feel like when I do open up to my husband, he doesn't quite understand what I feel. We recently found out that he has low sperm count and his testosterone is a little low, Dr did say for us to get pregnant it is possible but we just need to get my husband fixed for that to happen, they want him to try Clomid for 3 months and if that doesn't work we will see a fertility specialist. I have been cleared that it's not me but some days I feel like it is me..I know I shouldn't put myself down like that but these feelings hit me really hard some days. Trying to stay positive and lose my Faith and Hope that one day I will have my baby 👼🏼😞