So Sick

I'm feeling incredibly nauseous right now. Just found out my mom had a mild heart attack, the doctors are worried she's gonna have a harder heart attack. I'm scared to death. My dad just died from cancer in 2015. I don't think I can handle anymore. I'm not looking for anyone's pity, I just needed somewhere to vent. I wanna be strong but it's so hard. I'm only 20 years old. My step dad had to get a stent last month because of his heart problems and now my mom has a heart attack. How am I supposed to handle this? I have my amazing boyfriend who is here for me, which is great and my best friend is trying. But no one understands the pain I'm feeling right now. I already can't have my daddy walk me down the aisle... is my mom even gonna make it there!? I should not have to be asking these questions or dealing with this at my age. I can't deal 😭😭😭😭 Sorry for the pity party.