I need any tips or tricks I can get.. October of 2015 I found out I was pregnant, and the same month I was rushed to the hospital to have an emergency D&C due to my miscarriage but my bodies lack of being able to pass it. Well my due date was May 20, 2016. So now here I am, April 2017 finding myself so upset every single day because I'm supposed to be planning my babies first birthday party, not crying because I never got to hold her. My question is, is there any advice out there to help me with her "1st birthday" coming up..