TTC Blues

I've been trying to get pregnant with my fiancé the past month, and although I'm so happy for all of you mommies-to-be, I can't help but feel jealous. Especially because of this weird thing where teens with no money and who cannot rely on their male partner to stay around get pregnant and the people who desperately want a child go through hell of trying to get pregnant. It's not fair.

I guess it's just that there aren't enough words to accurately say how much I want a child, and I just want it to happen. I don't know. Am I being stupid?

I just really want a kid, I guess.