How do I lose weight

Erin • In love with the most amazing man in the world 10.20.12 ❤️
I've tried diets and exercise but it makese angry I get very mean and upset and I absolutely hate exercise but I'm 18 I'm 5'3 and weigh 235 when I met my SO about 2.5 years ago I weighed 180 and Id love to get back down to that but my ultimate goal weight is 145 please help im disgusted with myself and I love to eat