I received news this afternoon that my grandma is really sick in the hospital and she might not make it pass tonight. I didn't make the effort to go see her one because we are a large family and not really allowed to see her and we are way to many to all be there it gets overwhelming and two because I don't think she ever liked me. Since I was small and used to visit her she was never affectionate towards me and would say that she loved her light skin grand kids mind you I'm a bit on the dark side or grandkids from her daughters side. Not going to lie but when I got the news I did tear up and I feel some type of way but idk if im doing the right thing and not going to see her. As I got older and she got older I started to feel bad for her how she was suffering and was placed in a home but at the same time I didn't feel the connection as I have with my other grandparents. I'm I being a bad granddaughter 😞😟