frustrated and sad

Loreli
We've been trying for a year and no luck yet. At the end of December the company we both worked for went under and we were both unemployed. We still kept trying but I knew it wasn't going to happen because of the stress and I wasn't eating well. I was depressed and just didn't take care of myself. I'm already a big gal and I knew it would be a struggle. My husband recently got a job with the state we live in so the stress is starting to lighten up and I am starting to work on me again. 
All of my friends are getting pregnant or just had a baby and though I am very happy for them, a little piece of my hearts breaks everytime I get the "we have big news, we're expecting" call or text. It just happened today. My husband's cousin is pregnant with their second child. As soon as they left, I called my husband and started crying. I'm already 32. My mom had me at 30. And everyone else I know was younger when they started having kids. I feel so defeated.