My bf and I have been ttc baby number one for a few months now with no luck. However, the other day I got a very difficult diagnosis from my doctor. It's nothing life threatening but dramatically drains from my quality of life and my ability to enjoy day to day moments. So we've decided to put off baby while I work on healing and making myself whole again. I know it's the wise, mature and responsible thing to do and that it's best for both us and our future children, but it's still heartbreaking. I've got a difficult road ahead and I'm so anxious about it. I guess all I can do it push through one day at a time and know one day I'll have my family and we will be healthy and whole together.