what can I do to occupy my mind?

Loreali
Hey everyone I'm new here so basically I've been dealing with mostly depression and anxiety for a few months now last night me and my sister tryed switching
Rooms yesterday and I said nope I said yes first off because she was pressuring me for months and I finally gave in I knew that was my space where I could be me and I couldn't change that so while my sister was painting I was sitting out in the living room crying and my dad and his bf were fighting I took a knife and tryed cutting myself 2 but that didn't work eventually my I was scratching my hand raw 
As you can see right here and I texted this pic to my stepdad and he called my mom and they were going to call the police to take me to the hospital but they talked to my dad and my dad things I was overreacting and being a baby so my mom called a crisis line to have someone come over but eventually they couldn't rn my plan with my room is to paint it tommorw and then bake cookies after that today I went to nystrome and associates to get my meds checked up on and she switched up my meds so starting I'm going to be on 100mg of Zoloft and resparadine 1mg at night 0.5 in the morning also if I need it when I get rigid thinking if I ask for one 0.5 if that makes sense also I went to get my blood drawn but yesterday it felt so nice to get my room back also today I talked to my case manager and we thought of some ways other than scratching myself to help so I'm wondering what you guys think and yea I just need support comment below
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Number also this is what my hand looks like now