I really wanted an all natural labor. I had done so much to try and prepare my mind and just be in the right place. During labor I made it to 9 cm and my doc asked me if I wanted meds. I caved and said yes. Got a partial epidural or whatever the heck it's called. Today it's been hitting me hard, that had my doctor not asked I probably wouldn't have gotten it. I'm not frustrated with her I'm just frustrated I didn't stick to my plan when I knew I could have done it...I'm disappointed with myself I guess.