I don't know if I'm looking for motivation to carry on, confirmation that my feelings are normal or advice from people going through the same. I'm not enjoying breastfeeding atm. We're nearly 6 months in and my plan was to do it for 6 months before going to formula due to going back to work but I dont know how to get him off. I've seen on here a lot of you pump, but I hate doing it. I've mentioned before my son won't take a bottle. He's taken a sippy cup once but has since refused. This means I have not had a moment to myself in nearly 6 months (I know my choice to have a child but I hope you understand) I've been out twice without him, once to the doctors and once to the cinema. His dad is in the Army so is away in the week so it is just the two of us. He is up every 2 hours and I'm exhausted. I have low vitamin d and iron so taking supplements for it. The older he is getting the more clingy he is too. I love that he loves me so much but even in the company of others he cries if anyone but me holds him. I am starting to get anxiety about him going to nursery, I even have an hour appointment at the dentist on Tuesday and know he will cry the whole time I am gone. I also have a hen weekend the end of next month which I really want to go to, I'm already £350 out of pocket for it. I am a bridesmaid and helped organise it and have been looking forward to it. Now my partner has told me he will be stationed away when he was supposed to have our son so chances are I now wont be able to go because of the clinginess and lack of being able to feed him in my absence. His Dad would at least have the patience to use a syringe and rock him through the tears. I guess if he could take both bottle and breast I would carry on but right now I am at a loss of what to do. Guess this was just to vent