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So me and my fiancé have been trying for a baby over three years, we are saving for a mortgage so we are in a serious relationship, today I looked after my fiancée nephew, he is only 2 and a half, he has an iPod and I don't see why children that age have stuff like this... but he started having a tantrum because it wasnt charged enough and died! He was screaming, kicking throwing the iPod then decided to start smacking me! I was so shocked! What's everyone's opinion on children with electrical things like this? And all this has made me realise I may not be ready to be a mum and to focus on getting our house, at the end of the day I'm only 19 and he's is 20, maybe this is best for us to focus on that TTC  🏡 💑