Glutton for punishment...

Sometimes I feel like I'm a glutton for punishment. I'm the 1 that will purposely look at those posts that ask if anyone sees a faint line, or other people's success stories, and read about celebrity pregnancies and I've even downloaded 'What To Expect When You're Expexting' already. What's wrong with me?? Don't know why I do this to myself! It just makes me miserable in the end. It's like someone on a diet eating an entire chocolate cake then staring at the plate afterwards and asking 'what have I done?'. Terrible!