Just don't know

Tierra
So the father of my child and I are not together. 
Because he cheated and lied. 
(There's a lot more to the story) 
But now that we are not together and we can't really have a conversation. 
He began denying my child. After two years of trying for a baby he denying my child.
I'm completely heartbroken. If it's not one thing it another. I'm constantly getting stab in my back. 
Once upon of time I use to love this man. And sucks to say I still do and there's apart of me that's wants my family to work. I want to fix it. 
Than I think about EVERYTHING he has done and it's unforgivable to the point I want nothing to do with him. I don't even want him around the baby.. 
Someone please tell me I'm not crazy.