I am feeling a little sad, well a lot. Husband and I have talked about having another LO. This would be our fourth and all three of my older children are four years apart. My youngest just turned four. I was in a car accident a few years back and the pain has gotten worse over the years. I am doubting my ability to get through a pregnancy with minimal narcotic use. I have been walking around 4 miles a day and am in so much pain at the end of my walks. I continue to move because science says it will get better with excercise. I want to cry because  I don't think we could afford to have a surrogate, even though my SIL would carry. My husband refuses to adopt. I guess this is more a vent but I'm so lost. I am incredibly thankful for the children I do have and am in no way downplaying those who are trying for their first. I guess I am feeling incomplete, I always wanted four children. We can certainly afford all our children, even another. I just don't know if I should continue to try or just throw in the towel because of the pain. Just extremely upset. Anyone in my boat at all?