I'm a first time mommy , I just had my baby a week ago && I don't feel happy ... I love my baby , but sometimes I wish I would've waited .. I feel so horrible for thinking that or even saying it .. I hate myself for it cause I know my baby didn't ask for any of it .. he's so innocent && precious , he has a terrible mother . I'm trying so hard to be strong for him but I always break down .. I'm always crying nonstop && I'm not eating .. I just don't know what to do .. I have my husband to talk to about everything but it doesn't feel enough .. I'm not sure if I'm getting postpartum depression or if I just don't know how to take care of a baby .. I just feel so stressed out && irritated, I'm running on no sleep && haven't ate in 5 days ..