I have to get this out so I don't break down crying in a room full of people.

I don't want to get engaged right now. I just want to wait. Yet I feel like I am being rip I half.

I want to work on myself! I have some big changes next year and my mom recently died.

I just wait to wait, yet no matter what I do is wrong.

I told my boyfriend how I feel he doesn't understand. My friend said I was being real harsh by saying no because of my mom and it can ruin our relationship