Nearly four years ago I had my first child. He has been an amazing addition to our family; and so fun and loving. For nearly the last two years, I've wanted a second child. My husband does not. All along we've saved clothing and items necessary for babies. Each month I talk about a baby and there's always an excuse why we shouldn't. For almost two years I've been hearing, when your student loan is paid off, when so and so does, if you sign a marriage agreement, etc. Now it's simply NO. He wants to travel. One is easy. Pregnancy is gross. It feels wrong, etc. We never talked about not having more children. He's simply decided this for us. I'm only 32. I'm not okay with being a mother of 1. It hurts my feelings. It disappoints me. I see my friends having their second children and I feel jealous. I'm beginning to resent him as a result. I honestly don't know what to do. I feel as though I've mislead.