I'm not sure if my son and I missed out on some essential bonding or what. I was due March 5th but suffered a placental abruption and my son was born via emergency csection 7 weeks early on January 18th. I had to be put under for his birth as there wasn't time for an epidural and didn't get to see him until a few hours after he was born. I was only allowed to hold him briefly for a few minutes the day after he was born before he was life flighted to another facility a couple hours away. I was able to join him in the NICU in the other town on the evening of January 20th. He spent 10 days in the NICU and I was there the entire time. They do limit the interaction so the development isn't hindered by overstimulation while in the NICU. I was home with him for 10 weeks and went to work after 12 weeks off work from having him, unfortunately I didn't have a choice in the matter as his medical bills were crippling. We tried breastfeeding in the NICU for a few days once they allowed him to nurse but he wasn't able to gain on my breast milk even through his feeding tube and had to be switched to formula. Now that I'm back to work he will not let me hold him to cuddle or comfort him. He screams, straightens his body won't accept any comfort from me. If he's not tired he will let me hold him to play with him, but never to cuddle. The second I hand him to my husband he's content and falls right to sleep with him. It's really a struggle for me. If my husband is not home at bedtime he will sit in my arms screaming until my husband gets home. Has anyone dealt with this? How did you get your LO over this? It's killing me. I grew him inside me, did everything I could for him and he wants nothing to do with me no matter how hard I try. I try putting him in other positions, rocking him, walking with him, wearing him and all things have the same result.