So ive been reading alot of stories on <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">eve</a> about rape and sexual assault. And its been making me think about the first time ive had sex, and i cant tell if im over exaggerating or whatever. But my first time experience went a like this.... (please dont judge me)

Back in 9th grade towards the middle of winter i got real bad into pills (Percocets) and this was probaby the first time i ever took a full pill and i was a virgin. Anyways.. this boy syarted coming around and i thought we were just friends although i knew he was trying to get with me but i had no interest in him like that.. i went with a group of friends including him to get pizza while i was high af. And afterwards we got into the car and he asked to finger me amd i told him no.. and he said i would have sex with you but i dont have a condom. But my friends bf gave him one but i told him i didnt want to numerous times but the last thing i really remeber is my pants being down and him on top of me. Afterwards he had my friends bf drop him of at home immediately while i was still laying in the back seat of the car trying to figuar out what the fuck just happened. A week after or so I started hearing around school that he told acouple people and everytime someone said something about it i got this feeling in my stomach that made me want to throw up. To this day i try not to think about and i cant tell if its cause i was the one that fucked up or if i was raped or whatever.... what do you guys think.. i just want to stop thinking about it... its been about 5 years now.