What would you call it?

So ive been reading alot of stories on eve about rape and sexual assault. And its been making me think about the first time ive had sex, and i cant tell if im over exaggerating or whatever. But my first time experience went a like this.... (please dont judge me)

Back in 9th grade towards the middle of winter i got real bad into pills (Percocets) and this was probaby the first time i ever took a full pill and i was a virgin. Anyways.. this boy syarted coming around and i thought we were just friends although i knew he was trying to get with me but i had no interest in him like that.. i went with a group of friends including him to get pizza while i was high af. And afterwards we got into the car and he asked to finger me amd i told him no.. and he said i would have sex with you but i dont have a condom. But my friends bf gave him one but i told him i didnt want to numerous times but the last thing i really remeber is my pants being down and him on top of me. Afterwards he had my friends bf drop him of at home immediately while i was still laying in the back seat of the car trying to figuar out what the fuck just happened. A week after or so I started hearing around school that he told acouple people and everytime someone said something about it i got this feeling in my stomach that made me want to throw up. To this day i try not to think about and i cant tell if its cause i was the one that fucked up or if i was raped or whatever.... what do you guys think.. i just want to stop thinking about it... its been about 5 years now.