I feel empty. I was so excited. Now I'm back where I started. It's frustrating this time more than sad I'm just really irritated. And everyone thinks they know exactly what we should do. His side says it's fine we can try as soon as we are ready and my side says we need to stop and neither side cares how we feel! I want my next baby. I want to finish my family and raise my children close enough together that they have good bonds. My family was spread out and we don't get along. Four year gap... That's too much! And my oldest is already 4! People just need to let us be! We aren't babies we can take care of our own lives...