I hate being pregnant....

I know, i know, i should be grateful that i could even get pregnant despite being told i would never be able too but the truth is i hate being pregnant.

I hate what its doing to my mind, to my attitude and to my body.

I hate how insecure i feel, i hate that my jeans dont do up even though im only 12 weeks in, i hate that my skin has gone back to my teenage acne years and all i can hear in my head is the voices of the kids who used to bully me about it.

I hate that my prenatal vitamins make me want to throw up for 3/4 of the day even though i woke up feeling fine.

I hate that when i mention i dont feel too good my husband says 'you never feel good anymore'.

I sure as hell hope the second trimester is better because the first just sucks.

Sorry for feeling sorry for myself when i know i should be happy but todays a bad day.

UPDATE: THANK YOU TO EVERYONE FOR YOUR SUPPORT - truly has helped me get through a bad couple of days and after my scan today i am feeling heaps more positive and hoping my next trimester will keep the positive vibes coming!