Torturing myself.

So I'm 99% positive I'm not ovulating, and haven't in months.  I'm leaving for my honeymoon on Saturday, and when I get back I have to take progesterone to start my period, do a day 3 ultrasound, and then start Clomid. In the meantime I can't quit taking opk tests in the hope something happens. Anyone else drive themselves crazy like this?  I'm so ready to be a mommy. It seems everyone around me is getting preggo or has kids already.  It's like torture.