Having a boy!

Steffi • Have 3 amazing children. 2yrs-14yrs . X
Just found out we are having a boy. Feeling emotional and guilty as wanted a girl in preference. I know I will love the little chap but feel bad at my reaction! I'm very blessed as have a 10yr girl and 12yr boy am 43 and lost 2 babies last year. This miracle was our last go, my boyfriends first child. I know he wanted a girl tho he is thrilled at becoming a dad. Maybe that's why I feel disappointed feel I failed him. Anyone else feel this way? Please don't see me as a bad person. I love being a mum!!