(Prenote, kinda ttc, we want a son lol) Ok so hubbs and I had sex a few days before my fertile window, his mother looks me dead in the eye and asks me if I'm glowing. I laughed it off with a "no mom *laugh*" then the day before I ovulated we had sex and he didn't pull out. Last night, we had sex again (still in my fertile window) but I recall the same feeling of last night to the feeling I had right after I got pregnant with our daughter. Sex actually hurt in my cervix, and since then the same razorblade octopus tentacle feeling is going on ( another feeling from my first pregnancy when I wasn't even late for my period) I keep getting this tight feeling on one side of my pelvic area. My boobs are a little sensitive, I am so unnaturally gassy right now I want to cry, and I have been so sleepy I don't even want to be awake right now. I had a "gut feeling" with my daughter. I took 3 tests. And 2 were negative I gave up until my friend made me test. I have no idea when to test. We're moving this week, and this is my last fertile day so I have a while before I can test. Damn gut feels. I guess I'm just venting.

But my question,

super serious mom question.

I know you love all of your kids to the ends of the world. I'm just curious, when you have the second (in my case) or 3rd or what have you, does the explosive love for the first get dispersed or do you grow more mom love? And is the fear of not being able to give the first enough love gone after a month or something? I love our little girl so much, I just wonder how my emotions might fall if we have another little squish...

Thanks in advance :)