First Trimester dragging

Hi!! After 9 months of trying we got our BFP! (I've taken two tests since then just because I get so excited seeing the positive on the test- I know, crazy.) I'm about 5 weeks and 5 days and and my doc won't see me until 9 weeks because I'm not high risk and this is our first baby. I am so terrified something is going to happen and I have a month before I can see the baby. Everyday when I wake up I just want the day to be over so I can be closer to second trimester. I'm trying to stay as relaxed as possible but it's almost hard to be happy about my pregnancy for worrying that something will happen. Sometimes I even feel guilty for thinking about baby and baby showers and announcing it because I don't want to get my hopes up and not have a baby come December 😞