love...

how is it possible to fall for someone so hard in such a little amount of time. to fall in love with the cracks of their skin and scars that cover their body. to fall in love with the way they drive you crazy,

or how they make you laugh until your stomach cramps. how they touch your face or hold your hand or grab your waist and pull you closer. how they make you feel like the happiest person in the world and you can't see yourself without them in your life. how is that fucking possible. how can you get so attached to someone, when you know you shouldn't because you are scared to fall in love, or things end badly. so now i'm screwed up. this kid was the first person i've ever felt so strongly about. i told myself not to get to attached because nothing good ever stayed. and i was right. it didnt work out and i was so attached. it fucked me up and i didn't let people know that. i didn't even know how much i fell for him until it ended. so now i miss him, so fucking bad. all i do is think of him, non stop. i think of what would be happening right now if we were still dating. i think of kissing and hugging and cuddling. i think of late night adventures and going to the beach and stupid shit. i overthink it when i see him smile with another girl, or when he is being distant with me, or doesn't reply for hours. the point is, don't fall for someone in highschool  because it will fuck you up more than you can imagine.