Feeling sad :(((

AF shows up today I can't do this anymore, I just feel like taking myself out of this world what the hell have I done to deserve this, I hate my f**king life I hate, I hate it I don't want to be in this world I don't deserve to live anymore why is god punishing me, I live a good healthy lifestyle am sorry but this is it for me I just want to go to sleep and never woke up :,'(