Coming to an end...

I'm sad to see this cycle coming to an end since after this next period we will be no longer ttc....my SO is being let go from his job next month due to cutbacks so obviously not the time to be trying to have another baby. I was really looking forward to getting pregnant and having my last 2 kids be close in age. (My oldest is turning 5 this month and my youngest is 8 months old)

Part of me hopes af doesn't come, but the logical part of me knows pregnancy right now would be hard with everything going on.

This just sucks.