Adoption or Suffer

At First When I Found Out I Was Pregnant I Wanted To Throw A Big Tantrum. I Was About To Start My New Life With A New Career , Now I'm Struggling Trying To Figure Out If I Should Pay My Bills Or Use That Money Towards Food? I Know A Lot Of Women Have Trouble Trying To Conceive ( So I Shouldn't​ Be Complaining) But When You Don't Have Any Support Not Even From Your Childrens Father That Is Enough To Give Up All Together. I Want To Carry The Children ( Twins) To Term Simply Because Ive Had An Abortion Before And It Is The Worst Feeling In The World, But I Don't Want These Children To Live Life Regretting They Were Born Simply Because I Can't Care For Them. Should I Give Them Up For Adoption? I Want To But Then I Can't Live With The Fact That I Have Kids Living In The World Without Knowing Their Biological Mother Or Father. I Really Need Help 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭