wanna be pregnant again 😭

I'm supposed to start my period on the 9th, this is supposed to be my second period post miscarriage. my husband & i tried again, and he's about to leave to hawaii for like a year, and i hope i'm pregnant again so i can go with him 😭😭😭 i been extra tired, and i keep feeling like i need to throw up but can't 😩 i'm trying not to comvience myself that i'm pregnant without testing. i'm just so anxious 😭 can y'all pray for me, that we get a rainbow baby in one try please 🙏🏽🙏🏽