After 4 days of incredibly light spotting I think I'm actually having a period, the reall bleeding is starting. Part of me is glad, a very small part because this means my hormones are coming back to normal after a year of incredibly irregular periods I finally got one to close to on time. The other part of me is devastated even though I was spotting I took plenty of Hpts all BFN but I wasn't convinced until now. I'm still barren, I'm still empty, I'm still childless and I'm not one step closer to being a mother. I don't know how all you out there do it year after year. I pray for your strength thanks for listening