Am deeeep in my feelings atm but anyway... So, me and this guy were in a relationship for 2 years & last December he said to me that 'we should go on a break' because he doesn't feel like he's a good enough man to me at the moment. & obviously I didn't want to and I made it obvious that I didn't want to but he told me not to worry because he's still gonna be here for me (& I guess he wasn't lying because we talk every day). But anyway yea, we ended up going on a break in December 2016 & still to this very day (may 8 2017) we're on a 'break'. I've made so many hints that I want to get back together & I've asked him why we can't be together & when is the 'break' going to be over. I've tried so much different things but now he just does not seem to want to be in a relationship with me. We might aswell just say we broke up instead of calling it a break as its been so long, & it really upsets me whenever I think about it because I love him so much & I don't want to lose him & when he broke up with me in December it was so random like literally nothing bad happened between us,  I was so confused all I could do was cry. & am feeling disappointed with myself because although he broke up with me he still wants to hug, kiss & have sex & I agree to doing it because it feels normal as we have been doing it for a really long time. But after, I always feel used. I don't want to be friends with benefits, I just want someone who will love & respect me& show it. But he doesn't, we just talk as really close friends now and I completely hate it. How can I be friends with someone who I'm in love with ☹️ he never even tells me he loves me anymore.. I just don't know what to do now I've been feeling really upset for months now & I need some advice... I love him and I want him back that's for sure but I don't think he loves me as much as I love him & I feel like he's just keeping me around for the benefits& he wants me to be loyal to him, like he doesn't want me talking to or meeting up with other males. One time I did because I realised I was being loyal to a guy who dumped me & he ended up not talking to me for days & tbh I felt really lonely. Ah I just really don't know what to do? I love him so much & we've been through so much & I've put up with so much bullshit from him I really don't want everything to go down the drain but I don't know how am supposed to show him that I'm really hurting because of this situation. I've even told him that the fact that he dumped me for no reason really hurt me but he always just changes the subject or tries to make the situation not seem serious . Anyway am gonna stop waffling now, pls someone just please give me advice x