When TTC you figure it will take some time, maybe there is something wrong with me, maybe something wrong with his swimmers..... That is one thing, but to have your husband diagnosed with cancer is another! The worst part is that after almost 2 months the doctor still doesn't know where the cancer came from (poorly diffentiated carcinoma with unknown primary, found in lymph nodes)! He goes for a larger set of biopsies Wednesday and then hopefully a week later they will have some answers for us. The only thing any tests (he has everything imaginable tested) have revealed is the swollen lymph nodes and a small mass on the left testicle, and all bloodwork is normal. Sadly, we are hoping for testicular cancer to be proven by the biopsies! It would probably spell the end of baby dreams, but as long as I have him safe and healthy we will be fine!!! We are going to look into banking, but I don't know if it will be financially feasible. I'm getting used to it all, but I still have my moments of being scared out of my mind and being depressed as can be.

UPDATE: Turns out it is testicular cancer. Good thing is that it is very treatable, bad news if the chemo drugs will most likely kill off the sperm and they may remove the testicle. We finally got into a sperm bank (what a mission! ) and did the first sample yesterday, which got us 3 vials (1 vial = 1 try). We are planning to go back Monday to bank some more, but we aren't sure if they are going to start chemo next Tuesday or wait and remove the testicle next Friday. If they wait we can go back and get one more chance to bank. Really hoping that if they are going to remove it no matter what that they do it now, sounds odd but it should help increase our chances for a family when this is all over. Off to the oncologist today to hopefully find out what the plan will be. I will update once I know more.