my boyfriend doesnt understand what i'm going through

i have depression .. not taking anything for it , just living life day by day my boyfriend doesn't believe i do and i'm crying just to get my way, which is not true, i'm crying because i'm hurting inside and i have problems. Few years ago my doctor told me i can't have any children , something about my tubes . and since then i been in a depression for a long time. And my boyfriend doesn't know this so he makes fun of me .. i need help what should i do