So we had our ultrasound last Wednesday and found out we are having our 4th girl. My husband doesn't believe it at all. I believed it and knew it would be another girl and was super happy up until yesterday. It hit me like a ton of bricks. I don't even want to look at baby stuff at the store anymore. Maybe it's just a phase but I don't feel that connection right now like I had up until two days ago. And I am getting really big. Like I weighed 194 when I got preganat and I swear I weigh probably 205 now. Being over 200lbs just makes me want to hide. I feel gross. I started working out in September to get pregnant and continued 5 days a week until the naseua set it around 5 weeks. I go to the gym now maybe 1-2 times a week.....last week not at all. I know it's all for a good cause but I don't even want to have a gender reveal party or a baby shower bc I will only be heavier when those times come. I wanted to have a photographer at my birth but I don't even want that anymore bc I don't want to remember me weighing 230lbs....sorry for the rant. Maybe it will help putting it all out there.