I am only 20 weeks pregnant and tried for nearly two years to have a baby. This is my first, and I hate to say it but I hate being pregnant. I found out at 5 weeks. From 6 weeks I've been sick. For the past 4 weeks I've had really bad heartburn. For the past 5 weeks my hips and back have been agony, interrupting sleep, aching through the day. From about week 8 I've been constantly tired. I literally come home from work and sleep. Any spurts of energy are spent on cleaning the house that I've ignored due to sickness and/or tiredness. Hubby tries really hard. But I'll be honest, I think he's using the opportunity that I'm tired all the time. He never suggests taking me to lunch or dinner or going shopping for the day. Or even away for the day. I get I'm a sicky mess right now but I'm feeling really fed up, like my life has just stopped. I'm pregnant not Ill but the fun parts of my life have stopped cos of how pregnancy has made me feel. I'm really struggling to stay upbeat and I don't want to come across as ungrateful that my body has given me this amazing gift - I know it's not the baby it's just my crap body! But I'm struggling really bad to not burst into tears and throw myself onto the bed (or sit gently and roll my legs) in a dramatic fashion and beg the people around me to not just ask how I am but do something, make me feel like I'm not just this body baking a baby and that's all I am now. I'm posting this anonymously because I hate myself for even typing it. I feel like a big drama queen wanting sympathy and attention and being a brat that I'm not getting the right type. And I know if I even said it out loud I'd be told "ah it's just your hormones"