ectopic pregnancy

okay so i was with my ex for about 6 yrs - never used protection, never pregnant. had pains one day, got an ultrasound - found a 1.3 cm cyst on my left ovary. was told it ruptured and that i was fine.. having this happen and being we were trying it made me think i couldnt get prego...well we broke up a couple yrs later because he said i was "broken" ..... met someone new, having sex; no condom.. 6 months down the road, having pains in my lower abdomen, thought it was another cyst, finally went to hospital due to so much pain and found out i was preg, but having an EP and i was internally bleeding pretty bad and had to have emergency surgery.... it crushed me. all those yrs i was called broken, and then found out i was pregnant and having an EP within seconds of each other.... its been over a yrs and we still have never used a condom but still no baby.. im losing hope. :(