So early March Im not really sure how it started but both this guy and I started to kinda mess around. Both of us are firefighters, he is super sweet, and caring. Right now I'm going through alot of medical problems and he always is there for me. Here are the few problems. * Age is one thing, I'm 17 and he is 35. And please don't judge me. I'm very mature, I was set to graduate 2 years early. But I got very sick. I've always had my whole life planned out at least in terms of work. I'm going to a Suny school after my senior year for nursing. I've always been a b+ to an a- student. He helped me through getting raped and sexually assulted and now my ex who was very abusing and was black mailing me. So that problem number 1, * problem number 2 is my parents. They don't want me having sex or having anything to do with him. Which I understand. But at the same time we have both been very responsible. They only know I've seen him once. *Problem number 3 and please I don't want to hear any judgement on this. I know it's not right. But he is married. He hasn't lived at the house in 3 years. He is allowed in the house when she works and on the weekends to be with his 2 little girls. And I love them, I'd do anything for them. And when I was watching them before all of this. They would love to be with me more than their mom. And that made her super mad. And idk what to do. Any ways they are getting a divorce, she has wanted one since she kicked him out (which btw she did so because she didn't love him anymore, and he pays for the house, everything) so they do not consiter themselves together they were only waiting for the youngest to get a bit older. Well since the state can see everything you send on Snapchat. I had a state investigators show up on my door one night. Making sure I was ok, and that all of this started after my 17 birthday which it had so everything was legal. Long story short he got kicked out of the fire house because he is one of my advisors and they don't trust him. It's been a very long road. I guess what I'm trying to say is am I crazy? Are my parents and the fire house over reacting? And is it wrong to love him? He is slowly growing and learning to love me. I had a thing for him before this started so it was easier for me. He is so amazing. I have flash backs alot to when I was raped and all of that. And he will back off and hold my hand and kiss my forehead and tell me he is with me, no one can hurt me anymore. And he makes sure I'm ok. I'm not sure how I'm not supposed to fall for him! Sorry that was son long. I really don't need the negativity, my parents have covered that. They took prom away, driving, all my extra curiculars. And on top of thaty mom is always calling me a slut and a whore, and a dissapointment. And all of this in from of my family. So please I know it's wrong. But is some of this ok? Am I just crazy for thinking any of this will work?