Really want to quit smoking.

I am having alot of issues quitting.

And i hate myself for smoking.

I do not smoke inside my house..

I dont know what it is but i just cannot brimg myself to do it. I want to know how do i get in the right mindset to quit? I need the mindset to quit. I need something other than all the health benefits and i need help to know exactly HOW do i do it! Uggghh

Its like i want to quit but i dont want to go without and i know im going to be grumpy. I have 3 boys and they drive me insane half the time. I feel like i may explode if i quit. I dont know how to handle it.. How to really talk myself into it. Helllp . no negative feedback .. I know smoking is very bad for you. I know what it does to you and i know its terrible. What i need now is positive feedback and tips on how to bring myself to REALLY want to quit. I feel like i need every thought to be into wanting to quit. I wish i would have never started!