Im going to hell 4 have sex with boyfriends cousin !

So i met this guy at my job we was always cool but I had a man and wasn't interested in my guy friend at alll but when me n my boyfriend broke up a couple months past and some how me n this guy became closer .... anyways this how it started .... his cousin use to always pick him up from work and I was into the cousin but my "friend" kept shutting it down like oh u cant talk to my cousin blah blah blah .... so a couple months past me and my guy friend become a thing we're together now . Him and his cousin work at a bar , the cousin is a bouncer n hes a bar back. One night on our way to the bar me my new "boyfriend " and his cousin was chilling me and the cousin wanted to drink so we dropped my boo to the bar to start work b.c he dont drink ... long story short me and the cousin finished a bottle before we reached bac to the bar next thing u kno his hands is in my pants and im already soaking wet b.c im just always horny ( and this motherfuvker is so fine he like 6"2 200lbs built with a nice body ) next thing u kno he pulls over and we gettin it in . Smh i felt sooooo bad but it felt sooooo good . (Better then the new boo .... wayyy better) am i a thot for this ? Ughh (rhetorical question ppl ) lol

OK The guy tht im dating has been ignoring me for days on end prior to tht n just being a ass hole period . He told me he got options n dont need me he didn't tell me happy birthday and he tears me down emotionally so hey ... fuck it Yolo he doesn't spend time with me and when I tell him how i feel he thinks it's stupid ! Listen im 21 i regret nothing ! Im a good women but when u constantly hurt my feelings I become spiteful i posted my story to get opinions. So if u dont want shit like this to happen to your son's teach them how to treat women . Lol I honestly don't care about either one of them because thts not where my heart is . I told him from jump im just tryna have a good time especially just gettin out a 5 year relationship but it turned into something more n hes just not the same person I thought he was .

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