I'm the type of person to never cry, never let it show. But I've been soo depressed. I can't stand it any more. All my friends around me an my husbands stupid low life friends all are having babies. Some don't even want the baby. They all have messed up relationship or it was just a 1 night type of deal.

My point with all that is... My husband an I have our lives together, our priorities and marriage in order yet we still don't have a baby an we've been trying for so long...

& it just hurts me an makes me mad that everyone around me doesn't have their lives in order, aren't even in relationships yet they're poppin out babies left & right an living lavishly abusing welfare an all that...

Idk ladies.... Idk how much I can take & everyone in my family just tells me to pray & I don't think I believe any more

I'M TIRED OF ACTING SO STRONG WITH SOMETHING THAT MAKES ME SO WEAK AN BREAKS ME