RANT/Needing other Lesbian friends

So me and my gf have been together for 5 almost 6years, we've been ttc for over 3years I'm getting stressed and depressed as she already has a 10 year old and I'm 24 without a child, I'm very great with children as I am with my nieces and nephew. But I want my own. We've decided ivf and iui and even doctors are pricey which has nothing to do with is raising our own because we do a good job with the one we have but she was before we got together. Everytime we find a donor get everything in position they always say they can make it and then when it's time they say their busy. Some guys want sex and thats not what I'm into. I have no lesbian friends to relate to, all my other friends have kids or is having kids. Since we've been together I've witness 3abortions. 1 I was close to getting but the female thought about herself and aborted anyway which left me crushed. I'm all out of options and sadden. This may have been a little long, I just need someone else to talk to. I'm also ovulating with no help and knowing it is killing my soul.