how do you get over losing your best friend?

Sarah • Working mom
So it was a whole drama fest of me firing her from babysitting cause she kept leaving my kitchen a disaster and ignoring the food I pulled out for dinners causing it to go bad. Instead feeding them junk food because she was in "too much pain" that even doctors don't believe her on.
She called me a cunt and a bitch that can't communicate because she didn't realize that after training I would be working an hour later than the training schedule.
Then she started bitching about how much she agreed to be paid and that she was worth more. She was only watching them 3 days a week
Anyways we are no longer friends. I am so depressed, she was like a sister to me. I don't have many friends but she was my one constant friend over the last 5 years even when she moved out of state for a while.
My last words to her were I hope you get what you deserve and your path never falter from the destiny that fate has in store.
I'm trying so hard to not break down but even my husband can see how close it is.
How do you get over losing your best friend? How do you begin to make friends when you would rather read a book than socialize?

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