Well, it finally happened. We've been TTC since December, being very nonchalant for a stress free and lovely experience and still nothing. I'm 35 and my boyfriend is 33, so I know it could possibly happen slowly since I'm over 30. This morning my boyfriend's younger cousin announced she is 20 weeks pregnant and I was super excited for her then immediately jealous and depressed. This has never happened before and I really don't want to feel like that. I'm a strong believer in maintaining a good aura with positive energy and I never thought I could let these kind of negative feelings take control of me. I know I am human and these emotions are natural, it just stings a bit. Knowing what my body is capable of and wondering why it hasn't happened yet. Well, we have a family planning appointment scheduled later this month just to check if everything is alright with me. I suppose the news of her
pregnancy just has me worrying that something could be amiss. Typing this out has really helped me to feel better and more like myself. Anyhow, shrug off the negative energy and stay positive and know that this while gamut of emotions I'm feeling right now is perfectly normal. :-*
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